March 11, 2023


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Many years ago, I went through a serious spiritual crisis. I thought “Where was God while this was going on? Why didn’t He do something to stop it? I thought He loves us all! If he does, then where was He? I fumed and yelled at Him, and just “let Him have it!” I began drinking, smoking, and just doing whatever I felt like doing at the time, and I quit attending church. I just turned my back on Him.

But He never turned His back on me! Even though I did, God WAS always there. Just like His Son, Christ Jesus said to me when I was 12… He never left me.

And again, I lost 4 precious family members. The first one – a daughter-in-law, was very very close to me. When she went to sleep (died) in 2016, I turned my back on God … again! Then the other 3 passed faster than I could think! Three grandchildren, in 2019, two a month apart, and one in 2021. Needless to say, I was pretty devastated. These are young adults! They’re not supposed to die before me, who is old!

About a year after I got over the shock and had calmed down a bit, God spoke to me. He told me something that put me in such comfort and ease. He said “I took them before they saw corruption”. I was like…. “Oh.” That’s all I could say.

Heb 13:5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as you have: for he has said, I will never leave you, nor forsake you.

So why do I have this ministry? Simple… God has more than proved His love for me, and that He IS ALWAYS there with us!

1 Pet 3:15-22 But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asks you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear: Having a good conscience; that, whereas they speak evil of you, as of evildoers, they may be ashamed that falsely accuse your good conversation in Christ. For it is better, if the will of God be so, that you suffer for well doing, than for evil doing. For Christ also hath once suffered for sins, the just for the unjust, that he might bring us to God, being put to death in the flesh, but quickened by the Spirit: By which also he went and preached unto the spirits in prison; Which sometime were disobedient, when once the long-suffering of God waited in the days of Noah, while the ark was a preparing, wherein few, that is, eight souls were saved by water. The like figure whereunto even baptism does also now save us (not the putting away of the filth of the flesh, but the answer of a good conscience toward God,) by the resurrection of Jesus Christ: Who is gone into heaven, and is on the right hand of God; angels and authorities and powers being made subject unto him.

When someone asks me why I believe what and the way I believe, I must be prepared, and able to give them a good, Godly answer… and my life must show it.

1 Pet 3:15  But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asks you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear

Several months or so after my angry “tantrum”, I broke down. It took me that long to come to my senses. I then was able to calmly asked God, “Why?” He told me “To prepare you for what I have in store for you.” I asked Him, “But why did my family have to be destroyed and my children scarred for life?” “I have plans for them as well”, was the reply.

I can’t explain all of the if’s, and’s or but’s about why God does things, or allows things to happen. I do know that He does them to prepare us for something that He has in store for us, OR, because if we are not listening to or obeying Him, it is His way of chastising or disciplining us… Some things He does just to get our attention, to let us know He IS there! He IS in charge. He KNOWS what’s going on.

The things that happened in my life were in preparation for teaching you, helping you, being there to help you understand Him. But before I could do any of this, I had to be able to understand your problem(s). I had to “walk in your shoes”, so to speak. I can’t think of anything I have been through where God hasn’t brought me through it a new person… with a new lesson taught.

People say (especially psychiatrists) that to believe in God is a weakness for “sorry, naive” folks. They only say this because they think they have all the answers to life’s problems. They say “bad things happen because the person was simply ‘in the wrong place, at the wrong time’, or made the wrong choices.

I agree about making wrong choices. But it is not because of weakness that I believe and trust in Someone I can’t see. It is because I KNOW, beyond any doubt, that GOD, and NOT man, knows what I’m having to deal with in my life. Why? Because much of it He started, for whatever reason, or I made wrong choices and He allowed the consequences to run their course.

How can I know God really exists?

Look up. Ask, out loud, for Him to show Himself to you. In some way, He will. Maybe not right then at that very second, but He will… in His time – in His way. As you are thinking of Him, you can know that He put that searching thought into your mind in the first place! He wants you to look for Him! He wants to make Himself known to you! He wants to “bless your socks off”!

John 6:37 All that the Father gives me shall come to me; and him that comes to me I will in no wise cast out.

John 6:44 No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day.

The Greek word for draw is helkuo; meaning

1) to draw, drag off
2) metaphorically, to draw by inward power, lead, impel

When you find you have questions about God, it is His way of calling you to Him; dragging you to Him. Mankind of the world’s way, cannot know God unless He does yank us out from where we are spiritually, and shows us Himself. This is when we turn from “vessels of dishonor (people of the world) to vessels of honor (Children of God).

Rom 9:21 Has not the potter (God) power over the clay, of the same lump to make one vessel unto honour, and another unto dishonour?

John 3:27 b A man can receive nothing, except it be given him from heaven.

John 5:44 How can you believe, which receive honour one of another, and seek not the honour that comes from God only?

1 John 4:4 You are of God, little children, and have overcome them: because greater is He that is in you, than he that is in the world.

I am going to show you passages of Scripture to help you understand things that God has said. Now, you may say, “that book is just a fantasy, or a fiction book. It’s not real. Some men got together and wrote it. And on top of that, I’ve heard there are tons of errors in it!

HOWEVER!!! It wasn’t just any men that “got together” to write it… but God CHOSE these men and TOLD them what to say. Just as, right now, as I am writing this, God is inspiring me as to what to say. I hear His voice in my heart… in my mind. He is refreshing my memory of things He taught me as I have lived my life. The Bible is NOT a fantasy novel to be enjoyed. It is a book of history, and life lessons to be learned. If one reads it, and practices the good things he or she reads, then they will see the rewards that God promises!!! It’s like taking a math class… You learn it once in school from books, and then through your life, you use the principles you learned; like for cooking or building; it becomes real for you… You understand how the principles work and how to use them better as you put them into practice. God WILL “make Himself real” for you in the same way!

Yes there are many thousands of errors in the King James Version and many others. But that’s another teaching in itself!!! As I share THIS message, I am using the KJV because it is the most accessible to everyone and more accurate than many out there now. But where there are errors in it, I will explain what the original text says.

2 Peter 1:21 For the prophecy came not in old time by the will of man: but holy men of God spake as they were moved (inspired) by the Holy Ghost.

This was before the church changed it to say what they wanted it to say, “to keep ‘lay people’ in line”. And they killed those who tried to teach the truth! (There again, another teaching).

Believe it or not, the Commandments of God are put into law in just about every country in the world. Even though no rewards are given by man to everyone who obeys them, certain punishments are for those who don’t. For example, if one steals from, or kills another, they will go to prison, or, in some countries, get their hand(s) cut off.

A worldly simple example would be in carpentry. The saying goes “measure twice, cut once”. If you don’t cut it exactly as it should be, you’ve lost that piece. Whatever you are working on will not fit. Another example could be: if you are not obedient to the rules on using the tools of carpentry, someone could get seriously injured, or even killed by carelessness.

The same principle applies to practicing God’s Word in our lives. There are consequences we have to pay for those things we do wrong. But I digress… Let’s go back to the message at hand]

Deut 4:29… if from thence you shalt seek the LORD your God, you shalt find him, if you seek him with all your heart and with all your soul.

1 Chron 28:9 b… the LORD searches all hearts, and understandes all the imaginations of the thoughts: if you seek him, he will be found of you; but if you forsake him, he will cast you off for ever (for the ages).

If you are looking for Him, He will come and make Himself known to you. We need to seek out… go looking for God for ourselves. He already knows all about us. He knows about our problems, our health, our family, our friends, our jobs, etc.

2 Chron 15:2 b… The LORD is with you, while you be with him; and if you seek him, he will be found of you; but if you forsake him, he will forsake you.

Ezra 8:22 b… The hand of our God is upon all them for good that seek him; but his power and his wrath is against all them that forsake him.

Psa 119:2 Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with the whole heart.

Heb 11:6 But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that comes to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him.

You can’t just go looking for God. You have to have an honest wanting to know Him. He won’t make Himself known to just anyone… especially those who are just being spiteful…. Well, He might… but not in a way THEY would like!

Elijah, a prophet of The Lord, was in great danger. Jezebel and Ahab were “after him” because he was a prophet. They didn’t like God, because that meant that they would have to be “good folks”. But they wanted to control everyone… with no one controlling them. (Sounds like the governments and secret societies of today, hmmm?)

Because of this, Jezebel didn’t like prophets too much. Prophets are those who speak for God; who teach the people what God’s Word is. Read the complete story in the books 1 & 2 Kings to find out more!!! Because people are so hard hearted, they can’t hear that “still small voice” if and when God chooses to speak softly to them. Something really harsh or bad has to happen before they go to Him. And even then they might not! But YOU can!

1 Kings 19:9 And he (Elijah) came thither unto a cave, and lodged there; and, behold, the word of the LORD came to him, and he said unto him, What are you doing here, Elijah?

God was asking “What are you doing here, of all places? Why aren’t you at home?” Even though God already knew the answer, He wanted Elijah to realize it for himself.

:10 And he (Elijah) said, I have been very jealous for the LORD God of hosts: for the children of Israel have forsaken your covenant, thrown down your altars, and slain your prophets with the sword; and I, even I only, am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.

I’d say that Elijah was feeling pretty sorry for himself here.

:11-12 And he (God) said, Go forth, and stand upon the mount before the LORD. And, behold, the LORD passed by, and a great and strong wind rent the mountains, and brake in pieces the rocks before the LORD; but the LORD was not in the wind: and after the wind an earthquake; but the LORD was not in the earthquake: And after the earthquake a fire; but the LORD was not in the fire: and after the fire a still small voice.

:13 And it was so, when Elijah heard it, that he wrapped his face in his mantle, and went out, and stood in the entering in of the cave. (He thought someone was outside and went to look) And, behold, there came a voice unto him, and said, What are you doing here, Elijah?

God let Elijah know He was there. Not in anything he could see, but with a still, small voice in his mind; in his heart. And now He was asking him again, “Ok, now that you know I’m with you, why are you still here?”

:14 And he said, I have been very jealous for the LORD God of hosts: because the children of Israel have forsaken your covenant, thrown down your altars, and slain your prophets with the sword; and I, even I only, am left; and they seek my life, to take it away.

Elijah repeated his answer because of his strong faith in God. He wanted God to know, beyond any doubt that he trusted Him, but yet he was still afraid.

:15 a And the LORD said unto him, Go, return on your way to the wilderness of Damascus…

Here, He was telling Elijah, “Ok, I understand you, I get it… but do as I say, and all will be okay”. God went on to take care of Elijah’s “problem”

Just because we can’t see the air we breath, doesn’t mean it’s not there. Just because we can’t see God physically, doesn’t mean He’s not there. God WILL make Himself known to you when you truly seek Him. Then, He will help you through your situation if you but trust Him.

But why should I trust in something or someone I can’t see? You do it all the time! An example of this would be putting your money in the bank and trusting that the bank is holding it for you… Perhaps you have a “direct deposit” account. In this, you are trusting that your employer will deposit your earnings into your bank account, but you didn’t see him do it, did you? You don’t know the people who work at the bank, do you? You can’t SEE your money, but you trust it will be in your account when you desire to use it. Or trusting that your babysitter is taking good care of your child. You’re not there to see how they treat them, are you? But you trust that everything is going as you would like them to go.

We can’t see God, but we can trust that He IS, and that He IS with us, especially if and when we truly acknowledge Him. He will then make Himself known to us!

God created evil… The Word says it, and I believe it… The adversary is the accuser.

Isa 45:7 I form the light, and create darkness: I make peace, and create evil: I the Lord do all these things.

Rev 12:10 And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night.

Every word we say, every action we take, the adversary runs to God, as a “tattle tale” and accuses us. “She had sex with that guy… and she’s married!” “He just beat up that lady!” “Oh! she just sassed her parents!” “He didn’t get up and go to church, and told his parents he was sick… but you know he’s not!”; “She may go to church and worship you, but she’s not perfect, she smokes cigarettes!” He stands before God day in and day out accusing us of even the tiniest things. Then, he tries to talk God into letting him do stuff to us. He is THE sadist if ever there was one!!! HE is what we must stand against!!!

1 Pet 5:8 Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walks about, seeking whom he may devour

Eph 6:10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.

:11-12 Put on the whole armour of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places (government).

:13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

:14-15 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;

:16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith you shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.

:17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:

:18-20 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints; And for me (your pastors and teachers), that utterance may be given unto me, that I may open my mouth boldly, to make known the mystery of the gospel, For which I am an ambassador in bonds: that therein I may speak boldly, as I ought to speak.

You can know that God IS. He knows you. He loves you. AND He’s “got your back” when you trust and worship Him!

Things happen for a purpose. Either to teach us, to punish us, or to simply guide us in our lives. What we must do, as in going to school to learn and wanting to earn good grades, is pay attention.

Pro 28:26 He that trusts in his own heart is a fool: but whoso walks wisely, he shall be delivered.

I don’t claim to have all the answers. I just know that I have trust in God, my Savior, in the name of His Son, Christ Jesus. I have seen miracles happen. I have had terrible things happen. But through all these, I know that I can go to God for comfort; for peace. I know that He IS. I know that He cares for me. You can too.

I truly hope this has been a help and a blessing to you. If you still have questions, or need help in understanding, please email me or leave a message in the question box on the home page here. I will do what I can to help you.

I pray God’s help and blessings for you as you live your life.

A Word from God: Keep your wicks trimmed and your lamps full!!!

(the following is more of a reiteration)


In September 2016 a very beloved daughter-in-law passed away from leukemia. I did not realize I loved her as I did until I ended up in the hospital where the doctors told me I suffered from “broken heart syndrome” I stopped talking to God for 2 years. Then…

February 2019 a granddaughter died from simple heart failure – 2 weeks before her 20th birthday. She will forever be 19.

April 2019 a grandson died in a double hit and run while he was trying to cross the street. He will forever be 21.

March 2021 another granddaughter died in a fatal car crash Two weeks before her 21st birthday. She will forever be 20.

Yes, I had an extremely hard time through all this. You could say my heart froze against God.

Then in that still small voice, that He spoke to Elijah with, He told me… out of the blue – when I wasn’t paying attention to anything in particular, so to speak… “I took your children before they saw corruption.”

I felt the peace in His love for me.

God doesn’t leave us… it is US that turns away from Him.

We can’t allow God’s enemy and ours to stifle our love for God. If we continually keep an open heart for Him, He will always talk to us be with us. Help us.

Stand against the wiles of the devil. Trust God instead.

Keep your wicks trimmed and your lamps full!